i am listening to the moldau by smetana. it is such a beatiful piece of music. it brings zll kinds of emotions from beauty to love to sadness. it reminds me of nature and earth and two lovers and a love lost. it tells of turmoil and separation and fear and dread. it tells of rebirth of what was and newness and resurrection bezutificztion of the zoul and it ends so joyfull. i cry everytime i listen to this music. i am so overwhelmed i think about it for a long long time. i want you to go to the innernet and listen to it on you tube.

i went jogging today for the probably the second or third time in a year or more. i am so out of shape. all my friends know that i use to jog every day. i have decided not to feel sad for myself any more. i was in a slump for a long long time. i am crawling out of a hole and i do not want to be there any more. music helps me. i am going to put my name back on aol and starting writing to all my friends. anyway do me a favor and go listen to the moldau on you tube. you will be glad you did.

i have lumps in both breasts and under my arms. they want to remove my breasts next week. my boobs are my life. they are everything i know. they are everything i am.

hello to all my friends

well it is snowing outside and i am sitting by the window watching the snow. my friend is asleep on the couch and he is snoring loudly. oh my gosh he sounds like a freight train hahhhahahhhhhhhahha. anyway i just happen to be thinking of my g-spot. yes my g-spot. i was 25 years old before i even knew i had a g-spot. i had been looking for it since i was about 16 or so and never found it. mainly because i did not know where it was. for the longest time i thought the g=spot was a myth. if it wasnt for nazeer my next door neighbor i would never have found it. he found it for me. i have had many orgazms in my life and many very intense ones but as some women know the g sport orgazm is the most powerful of them all. i will finish later my friend woke up.

i hope this works. i am on a wireless and we do not get very good reception here. i have been with my friend for 30 days now. i am feeling really good and i think i am quite relaxed. i am not worrying and i am out of that stupid depression i was in. he is so nice to me. we drove to oklahoma city for his birthday last week and spent the weekend at a hotel and ate out and went to a movie. i can stay here with him as long as i like. i miss home a little bit but i do not really miss my special friends as much as i thought i would. i think i am in very good health since i got here. miss priss does not hurt any more and the twins are not sore and even the kitchen door is smiling. i can actully poop without saying ouchie ouchie ouchie. eweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeweeeeeeeeeeeeeeuuuuuuuuuu hahhahahhahhahahahahahha. my body does pay a toll with my special friends. anyway enough of that. sorry i have not been answering any emails. i just dumped 700 emails from my two mail services and aol is shut down so if you wrote e a email i will not be able to answer those. wait about two weeks and write me again. sorry for the in con ven ence. we road horses through the hills all day yesterday. i had a reallly good time. the sun was out and we took a lunch. and the hills are beautiful. today is a little cloudy but i dont care. we have a fire place that we light every night. this is really a restful area. so bye bye and i will be home in two weeks maybe or maybe another month.

i have a friend in oklahoma. i have not seen him since i was about 17 or so. we have been writing to each other on and off over the years. he has asked me many times to come stay with him for a while. his wife has pased on and he has been alone for many years. i decided to day that i am going to go down there nd stay for awhile. i made my mind up about noon today, all this snow and gray weather is depressing. i have already called him and said if he wants me then he can come and get me. he left acouple hours ago. he should be here in a few minutes i think. i am already packed. so i think i might not be back for a few weeks. i dunno. maybe i will sign on to aol i am not sure. anyway to all my friends i will see yall in a little while. bye bye from ann of hearts